34 Weeks - Love it / Hate it

A few days ago there was a bit of a meltdown at work. Some employees of one of our partner companies were let go and instead of leaving quietly they threw a tantrum. I don't even want to go into all the details, but it was drama! My boss and I had to get involved, call the police and have them escorted out. Before the police arrived however, they were shouting, angry and lashing out even at me personally. Everything they were saying was ridiculous, but at one point I really thought one of the girls might attack me. I tried to stay very calm, not respond and really just try to diffuse the situation. I will tell you though, the adrenalin was pumping and my pulse was racing. I had just had lunch and Elba is most active after eating. That and all the excitement had him doing a dance. So since then I've been taking it easy and relaxing.

So, whats new in pregnancy land? I'm getting tired again, not as bad as the first trimester, but still pretty done by the time I get out of work. Sometimes I come home and take a nap while Mitch makes dinner, and then that means that I can stay up till maybe midnight until ten. But then I'm not sleeping very well at night, tossing and turning. Having to get up to pee a million times doesn't help especially if baby starts up when I lay back down because then I can't fall asleep. I'm getting excited about meeting my son. That sounds weird! My friend Jen just had her baby, and Mitch's friend just had his baby. My co-worker's wife is being induced this next week. Honestly, I'm pretty ready. I'm not looking forward to the next 6 weeks of TV, tiredness and feeling incredibly slothful and inactive. Or maybe that is just my feelings this week! I'm starting to not enjoy this as much. My feet and legs are pretty swollen at the end of every day now and my crotch perpetually hurts. Sounds funny, right? It feels like when you go bike riding for too long. I asked the doctor and she said it is my pelvic bones separating - nice! This was one of those new things I hadn't ever heard of.

I can deal with the physical burdens much more than the emotional ones though. I am down on myself. I have always been one to push and motivate myself to being productive and fulfilled. I have watched more TV in the past year than I think the last 10 years. I'm not joking. I had avoided cable for years and was pretty adamant that TV is a colossal waste of time. Okay I still have kept shows that I watch, but I'm more of the rent the DVD type and pretend it is a movie. I've never been a channel surfer. Now I have a DVR. I can record and watch anything I want and skip the commercials too! I have taken leaps backward! I am ready to cancel the cable again...after having the baby. But until then, I am beating myself up for being such a bum. This weekend, I had two gatherings Friday night to attend. The plan was hit one for two hours, hit the other and be back before midnight because I am working this weekend. I shouldn't have come home. I took my clothes off to change, had a bowl of cereal for dinner and faced the choice of putting clothes back on and going out and having a secret rendezvous with the couch in my jammies. Guess which won...and I feel so guilty, but on the other hand, is it excused? Can't I just stay home , shrug my shoulders and say "I'm 8 1/2 months pregnant!" and let that excuse cover any hurt feelings? Don't I get a free pass this once? Or is that just my own guilty conscience talking? Like I said, I'm pretty ready already to do this. They say a baby changes everything. I hope so!

33 Weeks

The ultrasound revealed that the placenta has moved over more than 3 cm at this time, so that is a go for vaginal birth! It is hard to think about my time being pregnant coming to an end soon and having Elba actually here. I am so excited to meet him, but also getting more and more scared of the big event as it looms closer. I keep reminding myself that many women with less pain tolerance and bravery have done this successfully. So far that helps for now.

I had one of the best weekends with Mitch. We didn't do anything special, but we just really got along well and connected this weekend. Maybe because I was out of town for a few days this week in Chicago at a work conference, I don't know, but it was really nice. I can't say the same for Mother's Day weekend. We ended up fighting over stupid things. I think it was a combination of my being hormonal and crazy and him not being the most patient and understanding that day. For some reason normal communication was not within our grasp and we opted for retreating to neutral corners. Well I can say that now looking back, but at the time we were both pretty fired up and not too happy with each other. I of course felt a bit of a martyr as well, pitying my first Mothers Day as a horrible failure.

32 Weeks - First Mothers Day!

I bought a new car! A bright and shiny 2008 Honda CR-V now is what I'm sporting around in these days. I'd decided over the last year or so that I wanted a small SUV for extra storage for traveling (and now baby too!), and realized I wanted to stay true to Honda because I love them so. I'm pushing almost 200 thousand miles on the 2000 Civic and it is still a champ. This left me basically between the Element and CR-V. Both cars are great, but I don't like the boxy Element nearly as much as the sweet looking CR-V, so there you have it! I went to Honda Bloomfield and was helped by Ron, who I recommend for your used car needs. I feel like I'm big pimpin' when I drive and I haven't had THAT feeling for a while! I won't let Mitch drive the new car. He is a better driver than I am, it isn't that I'm afraid he will wreck it. It is just my little treat right now that I'm keeping all to myself. :)

Other than that, nothing else new really. I have to go next week for another ultrasound to see if the placenta is moved over enough so that I don't have to have a C-section. Tomorrow is Mother's Day - I guess this is my first as a mother instead of a daughter! I did a short speech about being a new mother at our resident function at work. I talked about seeing Mother's Day from a new perspective and ended with a very nice George Washington quote.

Speaking of work, I applied for a transfer to a Chicago property but didn't get it. The regional director said she had already hired someone before getting my request. I believe this, and she also talked about in the future that being a possibility. So, I'm brushing up on the marketing side of things and learning more about the differences in senior housing and residential so hopefully next go around I'll be ready. I was looking forward to maybe moving back to the Chicago area, but staying is good too! :)